Leaving you

Letting you go because
the reasons to hold on
are too strong and
threaten to envelope my
mind and body and world
in to a deluge of you
and the thoughts of you
and your touch and your
smells and your voice
and you and you and you.
I wish I could hold on tight
let this plant within me grow
but both of us know
that these plants will never bear fruit 

these are weeds growing within us 

and even though the flowers smell sweet 

they needed to be rooted out.

sweetheart, if only i could change 

this world and me for you 

if only we could make this boat float

If only life were worth living without you

If only I was not me 

If only if...

leaving you is leaving sanity 

leaving paradise on a parachute 

leaving a garden for the swamp 

leaving you is leaving myself.